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Dark Energy.....

Just a feeling....

Is all it ever is, but then shit happens and you felt it before.

Bad thoughts tonight, bad waves, negative energy.

Making me feel all crazy, thinking out crazy schemes.

Quick Getaways....

But you never escape

cause who you are will follow you

wherever you go....

so then the question becomes is it all worth it??

to that, I don't have a good answer.

It fucking better be....

Why these bad thoughts??

Why this terminal despair??

Why do I keep skipping ahead to the end??

Does everyone have these waves of emotion?

Fluctuations from the lowest lows to the best of highs.

Do they see the beauty that surrounds them

Or do they see the despair in the same view

Depending on their vantage.

Hate being down

Comes out of no where

Brings glee to my less better angels.

Try to shake it, quantify it, shed it.

But with each pain there is always more.

And more...

So the question still is.

Is it really fucking worth it??

Day after day of silent suffering.

Living in fear that they will find out

the pain is too much, so you do what you must

but for that, you lose it all.

All to try to escape the pain.

Pain that never leaves

Never gives in.

It lives off of MY energy, the pain uses my own body against me.

my leg, my back, my neck, my head, my jaw

am not even half of what I was

No man can stand tall on one side only.

balance is gone

compass, long broken.

there is wind, but putting up the sails is painful

and where it takes me often isn't worth the effort, anymore.

so I drift

with the souls in the ether

timeless and without form

but I feel them when I dream.

They know me and I've always known them.

In the land where this pain can not be.

have been set free.

to fly, to see all there is to be me.

Even now, I can sense their presence

Just below my waking thoughts

They call to me, but patiently wait.

A land time has no domain.

Here, above this rabbit hole.

life is mundane, dreaded, painfully usual.

not many admit it, even fewer will know it

they swim in the direction the arrow points.

5 Do's, 5 Don'ts - life is simple, if we stay in the shallow end

But the tide is whence we all arose and it calls us

beckons us back to our primal cradle

we feel the pull but on the surface we dress it up as other than it is

the fashion, the people.

when its all about you, me and the sea....

a bridge from here to the land of no time, no space - just hope and love

and dreams, pure as a child's wish.

to play among the stars

to breath the universe

startsuff are we all

and starstuff we shall be again.

for that we know is true

but frozen between tick and tock

is an eternity of souls, crying to be heard.

They speak to those who hear

but especially to those who listen.

The secret is we all exist at all the levels

even if we can't be sure

where time and space are off the clock

the spirit of life is pure.

If Health Care Reform had passed 30 years ago in this 'Christian Nation'.....

Greetings,

Has been a while since I posted anything, but it feels as good a time as any....

Some of you may have seen the recent 'dust up' on the WTSP story about the Urologist that put a sign on his Office door that encouraged Obama supporters to go elsewhere for treatment.

The debate in the comments was about as sane as the Dr who did this.

The Hippocratic Oath states above all other things to 'Do No Harm'. What exactly did he think that the people that saw that sign and walked away, experienced??

A Giant FU from a supposed professional telling you that if you don't bow to HIS politics, then hit the road.

'DO NO HARM'. - This clown is already under investigation, the AMA feels he violates his Oath by doing this, and so do I.


First, let me say, I am NOT complaining about the ills of my life. Everyone has their cross to bear. I don't seek to gauge mine as more or less than anyone else, only that I have felt the weight of it since my back issues began.

But, when did these back issues REALLY begin??

Have had WICKED migraines since I was 10 years old. Not once in all the times I went to seek ANY care for my headaches did ANYONE ever suggest an MRI of my neck area.

From what I understand, Degenerative Disk Disease is something that I could have been told of MANY years PRIOR to the onset of the major problems.

Insured, or not, no one ever sent me for an MRI, until the other symptoms set in, too late....

I spent my late teen years until my early 40's being in relatively GOOD shape.

Played a LOT of tennis, some basketball and enjoyed other sports like golf and bowling.

All those things are what busted my back, but I had no way of knowing.

Now, I can do none of the above, and tennis was something very important to me.


Had this Great Nation REQUIRED someone, somewhere along the FOR PROFIT Health Care System, to get me that scan 20 years ago, would have saved me a lot of trouble and I most likely would STILL be working instead of broken.

To think I am only an isolated case would be arrogant. EVERYONE could benefit from a full screening, early on in life to help avoid what I didn't.

I played tennis and basketball, rode my bicycle - all to stay in shape. But the whole time, I was causing irreparable damage to my spine. Impact by impact, day by day, my clock ticked down and I had no idea it was coming.

Looking back, now, and with these new Health Laws coming into play for everyone, can't help but think what would have happened had a little PREVENTATIVE care been done on me. How much time and trouble it could have saved everyone. Then multiply my case by thousands, or more, cause it is a very sad state of affairs, what we have called Health Insurance, until now.

I won't be doing any bungee jumping, or riding any more roller coasters (God, I miss those, too) and I am really OK with it.

No pity, no sympathy required.

If this had not have happened, I wouldn't be sitting here and writing this.

Writing is the window that God opened, when the doors slammed shut, and I have tried to do the best I could with my 'wordsmithing'.

I understand that a Positive Outlook can make a great deal of difference, but it won't get me on the tennis court or any of the GOOD rides at Busch Gardens. Am glad that others are able to do more when they are in bad shape, their joy doesn't subtract from me. O, included.

Am glad he can bungee jump. If I told my Dr. I was planning that, they would probably try to Baker Act me.

My injury is what everyone has told you all your life. You don't know until it happens to you, and pray that it doesn't.

I am FAR MORE fortunate than most, and I am keenly aware of it. These words are not meant as complaints, but an honest recognition of my current station in life.

Found my new favorite thing to do. Express my opinions and debate and learn from others who have insight to share.

Also learned how to deal with Henny Penny's, too, especially on ALL the Obama stuff.

President Obama has performed a great service to us and our future generations. Health Care will no longer be LONG waits at the Emergency Room for the least among us, and whether people want to hear it or not - Is the Christian thing to do, to take care of the sick and the weak. Jesus even used THOSE exact words for a reason.

We are NOT put here to do for ourselves, we are here to make differences in the lives of others. To bring comfort or a smile when it is most needed.

God didn't put us here to just do for ourselves and F everyone else.

These people were falling through the cracks and dying and not enough people cared enough to try and help.

For decades, this has been a HUGE problem. Even working people with full insurance coverage, like I was, were not immune to the greed and cherry picking procedures of these twisted Insurance Companies.

Now, FINALLY, people have stepped up and finally FORCED the people of this purported 'Christian Nation' to ACTUALLY do something that comports with their professed beliefs.

Take care of the sick and weakest among us.

And some of those same people, who SCREAMED how we were a 'Christian Nation' during the '08 election, seemed to have forgotten that being a Christian means more than SAYING stuff, it requires ACTION.

People said Obama was a Muslim, personally, he could be a Muppet, for all I care. He has BALLS and this supposed Muslim just moved your nation toward a MUCH MORE Christian Like entity.

The lives of the sick and the poor, now count for something, when the insurance companies only counted them as ONE THING - LOSSES. 

Now, those same people, are people, with dignity soon to be restored.

One would think that in such a Great Nation, these people would not be allowed to languish, as they have, for so long. We always could have done better and now, we finally have.

It is EXACTLY what Jesus would do, in fact He'd go further, but we are headed in the right direction, at LONG LAST.

And it took a man with the middle name of 'Hussein' to bring forth that compassion a TRUE Christian Nation would have.

Go figure.....