Dark Energy.....

Just a feeling....

Is all it ever is, but then shit happens and you felt it before.

Bad thoughts tonight, bad waves, negative energy.

Making me feel all crazy, thinking out crazy schemes.

Quick Getaways....

But you never escape

cause who you are will follow you

wherever you go....

so then the question becomes is it all worth it??

to that, I don't have a good answer.

It fucking better be....

Why these bad thoughts??

Why this terminal despair??

Why do I keep skipping ahead to the end??

Does everyone have these waves of emotion?

Fluctuations from the lowest lows to the best of highs.

Do they see the beauty that surrounds them

Or do they see the despair in the same view

Depending on their vantage.

Hate being down

Comes out of no where

Brings glee to my less better angels.

Try to shake it, quantify it, shed it.

But with each pain there is always more.

And more...

So the question still is.

Is it really fucking worth it??

Day after day of silent suffering.

Living in fear that they will find out

the pain is too much, so you do what you must

but for that, you lose it all.

All to try to escape the pain.

Pain that never leaves

Never gives in.

It lives off of MY energy, the pain uses my own body against me.

my leg, my back, my neck, my head, my jaw

am not even half of what I was

No man can stand tall on one side only.

balance is gone

compass, long broken.

there is wind, but putting up the sails is painful

and where it takes me often isn't worth the effort, anymore.

so I drift

with the souls in the ether

timeless and without form

but I feel them when I dream.

They know me and I've always known them.

In the land where this pain can not be.

have been set free.

to fly, to see all there is to be me.

Even now, I can sense their presence

Just below my waking thoughts

They call to me, but patiently wait.

A land time has no domain.

Here, above this rabbit hole.

life is mundane, dreaded, painfully usual.

not many admit it, even fewer will know it

they swim in the direction the arrow points.

5 Do's, 5 Don'ts - life is simple, if we stay in the shallow end

But the tide is whence we all arose and it calls us

beckons us back to our primal cradle

we feel the pull but on the surface we dress it up as other than it is

the fashion, the people.

when its all about you, me and the sea....

a bridge from here to the land of no time, no space - just hope and love

and dreams, pure as a child's wish.

to play among the stars

to breath the universe

startsuff are we all

and starstuff we shall be again.

for that we know is true

but frozen between tick and tock

is an eternity of souls, crying to be heard.

They speak to those who hear

but especially to those who listen.

The secret is we all exist at all the levels

even if we can't be sure

where time and space are off the clock

the spirit of life is pure.